When it's over

In three days, I'm turning a year older. No time for cheese though. I'm too busy to get myself nuts with the past. But I have to take a break now to blog. I havent been updating. Why does it bother me when I dont get to update? Hmmm...

Anyway, when a person so dear to you (uhrrrmm... call it a past love and good friend) does not call, respond to your emails or even send you sms anymore, it means that its totally over between the two of you, am i right? So when a person does that (im talking about ditching you without clue)... even if you were good friends and you dont remember anything that you did that might have caused him to "evaporate"... you're just going to leave it all behind, right? Even when it kinda' hurts coz you dont understand why and you still do have the hope that the both of you used to hold that one day, there would still be "the two of you"?

Oh I know the answer to all of these questions. Its a simple resounding YES.

Anyway yeah, this is about me. Im moderately stupid for still dwelling on this (just moderately though). Im thankful that just before I turn another year older, I make all these new realizations and learn new lessons. My lesson for this year is "learn to let go (and do it with poise please)". A friend of mine told me he hates birthdays and I wondered why. I guess it just doesnt matter much to some people but for me, I find this time of the year meaningful everytime.

I think I'm over him. I dont know what he's thinking. Sometimes it drives me crazy. I really did fall for him. But as I said in a past entry, this is a year of lots of "moving on's" and "stepping forward's".

I have a clearer view of my plans for the future. I am grateful for the new friends I have. Soon, I will fall in love again. Undoubtedly. But for now, I am trying not to awaken love till its time. I dont want to make the same mistake.

Time to fly, goose!