Loosening it up

Dont you notice that there are times when it seems like the more you tighten your grip on something, the more it slips away? There is nothing you can really hold on to even with your firmest grip. It feels like some bad reaction to a hallucigenic drug. Life can be such a big bummer sometimes!

Drat. There are just a lot of thoughts I cannot let go. Thoughts like, what will I be like in the next six months? Or, is this person really who I think he or she is or says? I wish I didnt have to care if promises would get broken or not... or if the things I've been planning on would really push through or not... or if this shampoo would really get rid of split ends or not, etc... Uncertainties drive me insane.

Well, I guess the lesson behind all these thoughts is that I dont really have to hold on to anything too tightly. I should just be happy about the present. I have met so many new people that have made a difference in my life and everyday they give me a reason to believe that even if  things that matter to me do slip away, it would  always be good to look back on the better things and to keep hoping for the next good ones. For everything, I should be thankful... and prayerful.

I got this beautiful text message a few days ago (I just added a few more lines):

When everything goes wrong, PUSH.

When you wish for something, PUSH.

When people dont understand you, PUSH.

When things are uncertain, PUSH.

When you can't see what's behind the door, PUSH.

PUSH. PUSH. PUSH. PUSH.

P - RAY

U- NTIL

S- OMETHING

H- APPENS

I know it doesnt mean "SIT THERE IDLY AND KEEP MURMURING YOUR NEEDS HEAVENWARDS." Its just that there are times when it seems like we've exhausted all our energies trying to figure out things or find results but still we cant seem to find what we long to see or feel. The truth in this is, we cannot do the digging, the searching, the maintaining, the figuring out... There are times when we need to take a break and rest. These are the particular points in time when we have to stay still and loosen our tight grips and let go... and let God.